woah. and woah. and woah.

Now that I actually have a substantial amount of written pages in my journal, I decided to take a little time yesterday and today just reading through old entries, seeing how messy my handwriting gets when I'm fighting off sleep, remembering how silly some of the things I wrote down seem in retrospect, and getting a tiny glimpse of how God's been working in my life.



I was quite amazed with what I saw. According to an entry I wrote just about a month and a half ago, I finally started getting annoyed with my procrastination. I wrote down a short list of all the things I've been missing because I so easily trivialize the things God's given me. Daily blessings and loving faithfulness turned into things I expected and deserved in my own eyes. I read that list today. (check out the previous post). Every single one of the things I wrote down has been turning around for the better. (e.g. I have more time than ever to QT).

It's pretty fantastic.

But I don't think that needs to be said.

:D

-spencer-

irony irony

I've had more fun in the past two weeks than I've had in a while.
I would call Starbucks my third home, but SOMEONE won't let me. Even so, I've been blessed with a lot of time to get to know people I normally don't see/talk to a whole lot.
On top of that, I've finished all of my homework so far, studied for every test, and I've even had time to work ahead. It's so gratifying to come home after studying all day and have nothing else to do for school until bedtime rolls around.
At the same time, I've had more time to QT and read a bunch of really interesting books. I've had so much time to just read, write, and think... and I'm getting a lot better at those three. :)

I don't what God's plan is out of all of this and I certainly don't understand how 4 hours at a library can still allow me enough time to do all the things I love, but I know that I'm liking things so far. But this kind of conditional appreciation is not the way I want to see God. It can't be the way I look at all the things He does in the world around us.

I'm looking forward to 4 days without internet (gasp!), calculus homework, laptops, V-day drama (fingers crossed), and libraries with terrible A/C and overly comfy-cushy chairs.

4 days to soak in some beautiful scenery
and freeze just a tad in this nice weather.

4 days to focus.
To focus hard.

:D

-spencer-